Friday, February 26, 2010

22 Days.....

I heard on the radio this morning that there is only 22 days until Spring...That makes me smile...I know, I know....just because the calendar says that it is Spring....doesn't mean that we will all of a sudden have "warm weather"....but just knowing that we can "officially" say it is Spring....means it won't be far away....and that makes Cassie one happy girl....

I don't blog much anymore, and having been making a small effort lately...but still not doing very well....I love to journal...and write things down...and have actually been doing more "writing" with a pen~than blogging....and thats ok...all journal entries aren't meant for blogs anyway...some need to be written on paper...with a really good pen...hee hee....A good pen is another thing that makes me smile...I will admit it...I am a dork....

Anyway...As we are coming up on Spring time...I was wanting to put a list on my blog of "Things that make me happy...."~even if they seem trivial~I just really need to write them down.... Seems like I have spent a lot of time complaining lately...Ask James...=) (not that we haven't had reason to...with a tree in my roof and all....I'm just sayin') This list is for me...so, don't be thinking that I should be happy for things I've not listed...I am obviously blessed with my precious family, my husband and best friend, my church, and my salvation...These things ALWAYS make me happy...even in the middle of January when it is pouring the snow, and there is a tree in my roof...This list is the "non-obvious" things...that when they happen, I "smile" on the inside....

So, for what it's worth....here it is....

"My list of things~no matter how small~that make me happy"

1. When I am in the pick up line at school....and I see Macey and Cade walking to the car...holding hands and smiling...They love each other so much...
2. When Ian comes up to me, and hugs me, no matter who is standing around...He isn't embarrased....
3. When James calls and asks me if I want to meet him for lunch
4. No laundry to do
5. having 20 minutes in the afternoon while waiting on the kids in the car~ to read
6. the tanning bed....I know, I know...but it does
7. the beach in general....I have actually gotten to the beach before, and my eyes filled up with tears....it is a place of complete peacefulness to me...I just can't even explain it....but James understands, and even that makes me happy...=)
8. To be married to my best friend....I always hear people complaining over their husbands, and I guess I do my share fair...but he is the Best...and I know I don't tell him that enough....
9. When Cade wants to hold my hand...and feeling that small little hand, that is already so much bigger than it used to be...in mine....
10. When Macey asks my opinion on something that is important to her....She is very independant....but knowing that she still needs my opinion...makes me smile....
11. Ian's face when he won his wrestling match yesterday....He has been really down on himself lately...struggling with some things related to school work, ect. He did awesome...and God knew he needed a little "self esteem" boost...and BLESSED him with a win yesterday....
12. Sunshine....When I see the sun trying to shine behind those gray clouds...beautiful...
13. Christian Friends...I am truly blessed with some of the best friends ever...James and I both...
14. This is a little more "materialistic"...but chap stick...couldn't live without it...
15. Getting ready to start a weight loss class with James...Love that we are doing this together...
16. NYC...loved spending time there with Macey...She sometimes gets left out with all of the sporting events ect we have to attend....so our time there was sacred....Girl time is a MUST
17. I am a "gadget girl"....so love my laptop, my blackberry, Ipod touch...you get the picture....
18. flip flops....with a good pedicure....always makes me smile....
19. my tattoo....every time I see it...I smile...
20. Cade's artwork...He def is a little artist...I love to hear his voice, explaining what he has drawn....and to see the details in his pictures...always amazes me....

that's it for now...because there are other things that need to be done around here...but just needed to do that...the list is much longer...may finish it later...have a blessed day...and enjoy the sunshine!!!!!

Friday, February 19, 2010

A Light at the End of the Tunnel....


This morning, James met with a contractor to "hopefully" get our house finished....


The weather finally seems to be breaking, and the insurance guys were out here the other day-and should be here the first of the week to get our roof fixed~from the tree damage....


We are hoping to get the garage finished also...just simply waiting on the estimate for that part....


The tree guys will be here in the next week or so to cut down 5 trees that we consider "dangerous" to our house...I definitely don't want to spend all this money on a new roof, and finishing my garage, only for a tree to fall on our house again...So those big guys are coming down...and we are SO thankful for that....


So, I say all that to say~God is in control...and it has all been in his timing...and for that I am thankful...Sometimes, I don't have patience to deal with some of life's situations that we face...the "unplanned" events that happen to us...But, as we look back, it is so evident that HIS hand was in it...everything from the tree falling, to the timing of where we were at the time it fell....even All of this snow we have had....there is a reason for it...I just want to say thanks to HIM this morning....for being there when we didn't know what was going to happen or which way to turn.....


The beautiful sunrise this morning was truly a blessing to me...My "light" at the end of a tunnel.....=)

Photobucket

Friday, February 5, 2010

There are Times....

There are times when I simply look at the vast mountain of laundry in my laundry room and think that there is no light at the end of the tunnel...I attempt to sort the clothes, fold them and place them in the correct child's room...Time to go pick the kids up from school, and then from out of nowhere there is another days worth of clothes thrown into the pile...that I had previously sorted...and it simply starts all over....=(

There are times that I think if I have to say,"Pick up your shoes, put away your coats, jackets, backpacks", "do you homework", one more time~that I am going to explode...or start screaming at the top of my lungs~actually I think I have tried that one...without a positive outcome...

There are times that I honestly want to break down and cry because I just put on my "hoodie for the day" and went into the bathroom to get ready-and got blue gel sparkly toothpaste all over my shirt because some little person didn't see it was neccessary to get it up after brushing their teeth...(at least they brushed them, right?)

There are times during our busy weeks when I think all I want to do is come home to my nice cozy home and stay here all evening...but no, we have to be at wrestling practice, dance, soccer, football, basketball, dog training, baseball~you name it...just depends on what season it is...

Dinner at home, together as a family...Is that too much to ask? Oh wait...I forgot my kitchen table is covered with picture frames, and paraphenalia from our family room...because we did just have a tree fall on our house~we have to walk past our mattresses in our living room around our bedroom furniture to get to the kitchen that we are unable to use to it's full capacity because we are waiting to get our roof fixed...and it keeps on snowing or raining or snowing or raining....I think you get the picture....

I walk down the hall, stepping over dirty clothes, broken toys, basketballs, and think "WHY? Can't these little people who live with me pick up after themselves?" I ask them to, sometimes I think they don't listen...sometimes I feel like everything that I do, is for nothing...But then my little guy writes me a note last night...that says something like..."Thank you mommy for loving me, taking me to school, always kissing me good night, and you are very special to me..."

Yes, that made me cry...God has a way of giving us a little ray of sunshine even on the cloudiest of days....and for that I am thankful...

I do think the chaos in our home situation has taken over...our lives, as of late are a little chaotic...I feel like I am lost at the bottom of this endless pit of "unfinishable tasks"....Tasks that can't be finished, unless someone else comes to do the work...roof, sheet rock, trees cut down....you get the picture....I may be in need of a vacation...or a doctor's appointment...or who knows? Both at this point...hee hee..

Now, just hoping for a break in this weather, so the roofers can get out here and get things going...then I can get to straightening out this mess....God is in control...I am just going to give all of this over to him...

Blogging used to seem like sort of therapy for me..so I thought, at this point...Might as well try it...=) Can't hurt? right?

Photobucket